How to put into words how I feel right this minute?
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, 02-22-2012 at 01:53 (1640 Views)
How to put into words how I feel right this minute?
My daughter and roommates are all snoozing.
I went outside to smoke a cig and looked up into such a vast sky. Tredecillions of stars are blinking at me. And I think to my-self “God,if you’re up there… and can hear me down here, good job…. You did such a good job.”
I feel so placated with life and the awesome power of it. The exquisiteness.
This is my time. During this time I am not a mother. I am not a friend, sister or daughter. I am not a co-worker or the base of anyone’s stability.I am just me. I am unimportant and yet most important.
The world will keep to its crazy cycle thousands of years after I have faded. And yet, at the same time, it is the here and the now that makes the most since. I am just another on this planet full of individuals just like me. And I don’t know why but that feeling in itself delights me. It is just a strange and powerful feeling. Like being in the middle of the ocean with no land in view and realizing just how tiny you are.