I have three choices right now… for background: I’m married, I moved away from home 2 years ago and have been living across the country since, I work at a retail store (have been there for two years) and have not gone to college yet in my life. I'm 20.
I have three choices at the moment.
1) My wife is going to grad. school in August and she wants me to leave with her– I don’t want to go with her because I am going to really miss my friends for the two years that I’m gone and I would be pretty miserable getting a new job and starting all over. I really don’t want to choose this option but if I just went with the flow and didn’t really put up any fight for my dreams or goals or feelings, this is probably what I’d go with. I'd go without going to college... my wife would finish... I'd become a stay-at-home dad... that's the relative idea.
2) I have a best friend that I’ve met where I moved– he’s amazing, fun to hang out with and a great friend to the point where he’s like a brother. I could try to stay here with him, get an apartment together and work at the same place and keep going for two years. Later on, my wife could move back or something else could happen– she might really hate me for making my decision to stay. also, I might have financial troubles if I stay here and things can be pretty uncertain. My future is a little coarse with this road-- I don't know if I'd get around to what I really want: hiking the appalachian trail or hiking a long trail in general.
3) This is the route I’ve wanted to take my whole life, I want to admit that. I want to leave to hike the appalachian trail and do the whole thing– southbound hike, northbound hike, whatever– I want to simply hike for a while and get the enjoyable feeling of being to myself and pursuing my goal of long-distance hiking. I expect the worst and having to deal with some tough times but it would be worth it for the experience, even if I don’t do the whole trail, I'd gain a lot of self-confidence in simply going and facing my feelings rather than burying them all of the time. The problem here is that I’d leave both my wife and my best friend for this for six months and then afterwards I might just have trouble finding a job or continuing my life afterwards. This is the ideal time to do this in my life– before any real tie-downs and before children.
Most ways I take this, I have to leave my current job which bugs me a lot, unless I stay then I could keep my job. I want to put in a two week notice and come back at some point (if I left with my wife I’d have to just transfer to another of the same retail store). I just don’t know what to do or what the best option is and I need to have this decided by Monday