OMG, the money for tobacco. 1st thing my wife says is "What did you buy for $6.08 at the store". It shows up on the debit card- man that woman is quick- I often refer to her as my "best mule"- sick, but she gets it. In the 3 weeks I smoked I think I spent over $100. Could have bought some new gear for sure.
Truth is, my relationship with God starts with the natural world, I only found that after getting sober. Smoking totally F'd-up that expereince. Funny thing - I don't go to church, at all, but I don't knock them- ironically, I find myself in more church basements than you can imagin. I like to say I am in God's night program. Anyhow, I can't spell either.