I'm starting to admit to myself that the PCT was not enough. I recently saw Scarlet and Wildflower's CDT video and the Walkumentary online and now I want to hike the CDT. I also recently saw a 5 minute video on the AT on Backpacker Mag's website. Now I want to hike the AT, too. I also recently read a story written by a man who decided to walk all over the US and Mexico. It just made me want to hit the trail for another long hike.
A few weeks ago it was my birthday so I spent the day hiking by myself. Last weekend I tagged along on a Sierra Club hike with my big backpack and then set off to do a solo overnighter. In the morning the trail smelled and looked like the PCT near Agua Dulce! Oh, the burning to get back on the trail! This weekend I plan to tag along on another Sierra Club hike with my pack to a spot that also reminds me of the PCT. I'm sure it'll put me in another black mood come Monday morning.
Meanwhile, I've been running my dehydrator for no really good reason. I bought a kit to make a parcho for no good reason--it rarely rains here. I started shopping for the perfect hiking shoe again for no good reason. I've got a collection of hiking food growing in the pantry for no good reason. My backpack is packed and ready to go, with nowhere really to go.
I'm 46. I still haven't committed to the career world. I've got a boyfriend/common law husband who will probably never come with me or understand me. I'm sick, I'm telling you. Why am I this way? What's the matter with me?
Any advice for me?