I don't know what to do.
I decided I wanted to hike the AT about 3 years ago, but I had several things I needed to accomplish personally to make that a reality. I weighed nearly 350lbs, had no money, and was still in school. With the trail as my focus I have now graduated college, lost 95lbs, and saved $5000 while also paying off my credit card debt. All of my gear is purchased and my current job commitment ends July 7. I did it. I am ready. I am terrified.
Like many people I have a strong desire for adventure and to challenge myself to grow as an individual. I'm also a very social being. I prefer to fill every moment of my free time with some form of social interaction. The least appealing aspect of an AT thru is the thought of sitting at a campsite alone and somewhat removed from society. While every other aspect of backpacking is exciting to me I worry that if I had to endure several days by myself I would have to quit.
I want to get in better shape. I want to have a once in a lifetime experience. I want adventure.
My plan has been to leave from Katahdin July 10. I have my transportation lined up but I've never been able to bring myself to pull the trigger on a campsite for night one.
This is all kinda scattered but I believe you can infer most of the rest. I realize I won't actually know for sure if it's for me unless I head out, but maybe by reading this a more appropriate alternative plan may become apparent. Maybe you can tell me all these feelings are completely normal. Maybe I don't have the right spirit for this type of adventure.
I appreciate all feedback. If nothing else, this has been an opportunity for me to gather my thoughts. Thanks, brothas (and ladies).