Whenever I consider the huge undertaking that I’m planning for, I get filled with anxiety. Most of it is just a fear of the unknown, but it can be truly terrifying to consider that I will be leaving everything I know for 5 or 6 months.
There are so many loose ends that will need to be tied before leaving that it boggles the mind. I have to terminate employment, my apartment, and find a storage unit/solution. Do I keep my car insurance? health insurance? defer my student loans? Will it take me a long time to find a job when I get back? …maybe I should start looking now. Will I even want a job when I get back?
Then I consider that none of these are even decisions directly related to completing the trail. There’s gear questions, travel arrangements, and communications with family and friends...
I kind of trailed off on a tangent here, but it seems crazy that I’m nervous so far in advance. I’m sure I can figure out all these problems in due time. Maybe the nerves are just because I know I’ll pull the trigger if it’s at all feasible.
Do you guys get nervous when you think about it?